Reading what goes through the minds of other people is really interesting at times, I'm not sure why it draws me in. Cause I should have gone to bed a bit ago cause I have to work in the morning that isn't really morning but I consider it morning because my sleeping pattern is harsh fucked up. I just read through Dacen's online journal. I bet he doesn't even know that I have the adress cause one time when he was on my compski he went to the site, and boom. there it is waiting in my history just for me to read it. Tonight after the workski I listened to Sebadoh-Bakesale. and burnt a CD for Reese my boss. She's awesome. I then proceeded to be really bored and bitter and alone because that's how I feel a lot of the time. BUt I shouldn't, Glen tells me, because it's all just how you let yourself be and "depression is bullshit" Which is basically entierly true.. and I wish it was easier to get out of the lame feeling that goes on in my mind about why everyone isn't alone except me. Or atleast that's how it feels, sometimes. Not all the time. Wow that REM song is really depressing. I don't know. Maybe I'm a little hurt because Steph ditched me to hang out with Dustin Diamond or something.. and I thought we had plans to go smoke a spliff. But it didn't happen. I went out by myself to a little park playground dealy and it was super so cold out there but I brought out the little stereo deal that I listen to in my car and put on the Zeppelin 4 but only lasted until just before Stairway because it was THAT cold. It was wierd as i smoked a solitary tear ran down my face. Just the one time though.. one tear and it was gone. Almost like when I did that movie with Dacen but this time it was dark out and I didnt' stare at the sun to become sad. Will my foot ever fully heal? It had better, or else...Eww. things bother me, that I have chosen in the past. Eww. uuh.. really not so bad, but sometimes making things out to be worse than they are is funny. No it's not. Smashley and Tristan gave me High Fidelity, game on. Cheers.